Happy New Year!

Hey everyone!

I've been looking forward to writing this one as the first one of a brand new year.

First off thanks for your patience whilst I've been growing through the grieving process since losing my dad almost three years ago now. It can't last forever, the process, but it's just that; a process. I've had to readjust my priorities in that time which has, sadly, meant that the blog had to take a back seat throughout. I knew I couldn't commit to the pace and quality I prefer to put out so had to take a big step back and walk through it.

I haven't exactly been prolific in my writing this past few years and it's a desire I want to correct this year in my bid, finally, to send Off the Scale finally to one hundred episodes which has taken me so much longer than I expected it would.

But such is life sometimes...

Growth in the Groaning

As you can imagine, this time without my dad has caused me a hell of a lot of pain emotionally and without a church community the process would have been worse than it was.

Yes, that's right, I've been searching for a new spiritual home for the next phase of my journey. I've tried a couple of churches near me and even, for a couple of months, went back to !Audacious last year (but that can be saved for another time).

Admittedly, I did hit my lowest point a while back, in March-April of last year which, thanks to my quarterly reviews I've been able to see tremendous growth thanks to God my Rock of Ages.

Trust in the LORD forever, for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock. Isaiah 26:2

That's the verse I instantly think of when I consider how God has been leading me through my season of grief. He has been an everlasting light to me the likes of which I couldn't imagine in what state I'd be without Him. He has shown me how to rejoice in the trough seasons as well as the peak seasons and I'm so grateful to have Him as my Saviour.

Sticking close to scripture and responsible Bible teaching has comforted me immensely and I'm ever so grateful for the journey I've been on. Rough as it has been, the lessons I have learned throughout have been key towards my development, the fruit of which I'm hoping can finally, finally begin to filter through here.

That's another reason why my blog had to take a back seat the past three years or so; I had to go through a season where some of my most private thoughts are recorded in the pages of my journal alone because not everything is supposed to be shared.

Not everything is supposed to be shared. Some of my thoughts are for my eyes only.

I wanted to make sure I continued to grow in the grieving because I knew that this wouldn't last forever and my life would find a new normal frequency to resonate at but I didn't want to waste the process.

Final Thought

This is why I write; it's therapeutic to me and, I hope, what I put out there for all to see, gives you pause for thought about your own perspective on life in the moment your eyes find these words.

Because you can change it. Your perspective. Yes, you can.

Until next time!

===TLP===