I never thought I'd get to this stage of the tune up!
I'm sure you've been following the journey that I've been on this past five days, so you could imagine the emotional state I've been in as I've gone through my spiritual check up.
I've ridden high and I've been flattened low, but it's all been designed to renew me into a more complete form of life, instead of the emotionally dysfunctional individual I was becoming.
I'll tell you a little story now...
Was I Too Strong For a Hug?
I may have already told you this and if I have, I'm sorry, but it has to be repeated.
Towards the end of my time at my last job, one of my female work colleagues saw how emotional I was getting at the demands of the job and ask if I would like a cuddle. It was the sort you offer a friend when you can see that they are struggling.
I told her that she was wasting her time because I probably wouldn't feel it...
I didn't mean to cause offence and I don't think that I did. In fact, I realise now that I was crying out for help because I had locked my emotions down that tightly for so many years.
I always thought there was more to life than feeling shielded from affection, but I did not know that God would use the very place that brought out these feelings to start a recovery project upon me that will forever change my life!
In other words, I have had to revisit my painful place in order to be delivered from it as I have been!
It's one thing to have a doctor check you out, but it's another completely to have the Lord God Almighty do it!
From Garage to Tune-Up Station
Having left the main garage of God's workshop, I can say that I feel emotionally restarted and recharged, better able to be the real man that I know my future girlfriend will need!
Who would want to try and love an unresponsive man? A man who thought no matter how hard someone squeezed in a hug, he just would not feel it!
Onto today's message, from Arise Church in New Zealand, it was John Cameron's turn to inspire me from a message entitled "A Picture of Fatherhood": -
Go back above the video and read the title of the message again...
Go on, I'll wait...
Did you get what I put?
"A Picture of Fatherhood" - Hmm, I think God is reminding me of a promise He made to me back in 2009; that I am destined to be a dad! :-D
How cool is that! :-)
To know that the Heavenly Father, my Heavenly Father, has chosen me to not only find the most amazing woman I could ever hope to meet, marry & multiply (ED - I hope that was accidental!) with, but also to become a father!
Let me reveal a little secret to you... I have every intention of multiplying, oh believe you me, on that you can testify, brother, take it to the bank and put your VERY HOUSE ON IT! :-D
Right now, though, I'm in no hurry, because God's got a plan and He's gradually weaving the two of us together to that point where we both realise that we are the next !Audacious power couple to unite!
Whilst I may have revealed to you that it is pretty much a banker that she is at !Audacious, I will only act when God tells me to... only when He tells me to because it is His hand that writes my greatest love story ever as I write this!
So, that's my fatherhood desires revealed, I could go on and write down my thoughts on John's message about the expectations that every father faces: -
Every dad expects to be a hero - In his kids' eyes, a father knows that he is their potentially greatest role model that they will ever have. Though there are many absent fathers today, we can be reminded that God is our hero and He promises never to leave us!Every dad expects to have time - In his kids' eyes, a father knows that all children value the time that they spend with their parents and, as I can personally testify, the times when my dad made himself available were some of the most amazing times I have ever had. God, on the other hand, never runs out of time to help & be with us!Every dad expects to be a provider - You can ask any dad and he will tell you that one of the most important things he will consider as a priority is making sure there is food on the table for his children. In God's eyes, He is Jehovah Jireh, our Provider and He can meet our every need.
There is no greater indication of God's availability than the fact that no matter how far you run, no matter where you go, He is just one... call... away! ;-)
I am not ashamed to admit that I am in love with Jesus, my "Abba", or as Joseph Prince says "Daddy God"!
I know that loving Jesus first proves that not only my commitment to purity & sanctity is genuine for my girlfriend, it is also another one for her to take to bank and put her life on!
Her life is mine and mine is hers... just as our lives are God's!
May my future girlfriend read this and be inspired, wherever she is, whoever she is! ;-)
Final Thought
Until this evening when I'll bring out what comes out from the evening session as I enjoy the time having been emotionally cleansed. This time I'm onto the tune-up station where I'll be modified some more to face the greatest future that I could ever have imagined with bold confidence and self-assurance abounding!
Peace off!
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