Lifestyles of the Who and What Now?!

Hey everyone!

This is the first lifestyle update that I've posted since I hit a really rocky patch in my walk so I want to see if I can find some encouragement to give you as no matter how bad it gets for me, I still want to be lifting you up where you belong!

Ready? Okay, let's go...

Stand Back for This One

After quite some time since I last spoke in depth, if you were looking for me to go to great lengths to talk about my crush, then you are sadly mistaken; I'm not for doing that as much anymore. Not because my feelings for her have changed, I'm still as super shy, yet super keen as I was when I first met her!

What has been going on in the meantime, though? As I already mentioned to you,  I've spoken to her and something has definitely shifted for me, but as for what I'm not telling you on here as this is for my eyes only.

Anyways, what I've been doing has been to keep up the momentum as far as the jobsearch goes, whilst along the way taking on some helpful (ED - and some not so helpful!) feedback on how I've been encouraging people with both my words and my deeds.

This is showing me that what I've been trying to do has been to apply Matt Redman's song "Unbroken Praise" to my life and see if I cannot look through my struggles to contain my feelings for someone I find so huggable & kissable (ED - now he'll probably get judged for that, lol!) to encourage those around me right where I am: -

So let my deeds outrun my words And let my life outweigh my songs

I've told you before that I'm not ashamed of how I have written about my walk upon here because this is my blog and I take full ownership of it. People are going to judge me, that's just what they do. The point is that I will never apologise for what I say upon here as it's my podium of the internet to talk from.

The reality is that, as much as I've been looking into Cognitive Behavioural Therapy, I see now where I've been lacking in life along with the reasons that this particular lack has stung so violently and I know now what I need to do to put things right.

If people want to turn their backs on me, like someone did last week in my struggle, that is their problem not mine because my destiny is too important to let anything or anyone stand in the way.

Even my crush? Oh yes, even my crush! :-O

Final Thought

I've learned how to reign in my ramblings now to where they are a coherent, cogent set of sentences and paragraphs that hopefully give you a snippet of my life at the moment.

Yes, I am a Bible-believing, God-fearing Christian, I think I've made that fully clear by now, so this blog is my attempt to see through my problems as a Christian should and know that, at all times , for all time, whatever happens to me, this verse always rings true from Romans 8:28: -

We know that all things work together [that God works together in all things] for the good [the ultimate good] of those who love God: those who are called according to His purpose.

You can try and tell me I'm 'making' that verse fit around my circumstances if you like, which someone once did, when the fact of life is that it will work out in the end, whether I end up with this amazing young lady or not!

Tell the critics to stick that up their... in their pipes and smoke it!

Boo-ya!