Moving Forward

Hello everyone!

The process of finding momentum does not always come easy, but it should be sought out nonetheless for otherwise if you are prone to depression and/or anxiety, you end up losing sight of the bigger picture. I have had to adjust to life without my dad now for the last couple of months and it's not been easy at all. But I know I have to keep moving forward. It's what he would want for me...

Choose Your Weights

In this life, there are many things that can pull us down and there are many other things that can elevate us and I have learnt through a lot of suffering, that it is, oftentimes better to cut out those that pull you down and cleave to those that elevate you higher.

Deadweight.

Be they friendships or habits, you are far better at finding people and activities that you can champion and they can support you right back. I have had to let go of a lot of people and things in my journey to get to where I am today. Not all of it has been easy because a lot of it I thought would be with me forever.

But there's no such thing as forever in this life. Only in the great beyond.

Given the beliefs that I have taught me that this life is not the end of everything, but merely the ending of a beginning, I cannot afford to get stuck in circumstance or consequence lest I lose sight, again, of the bigger picture.

Take my dad; I always thought he'd be here for me and now here I am, writing this without him. He ran a good race, a race any man would proud to recognise of his own father. He wasn't perfect, but dammit he tried his best and I'll remember him for that!

This is probably the hardest road I have ever had to walk down and though I walk down it without a church community right now, at least I have people at the shop. I saw them today and it was nice to spend time in good company, just for spending time in good company.

In this life, I have learnt moreso this year, there are no guarantees. Nothing is guaranteed because nothing is owed to me by this world. If I want something, then I have to put the work in to achieve it.

There are no shortcuts to success, lest you short-circuit your staying power once you get where you are going to. You may get there, but you won't stay there for very long. These days are some of the toughest I've ever had to live through, but I'm still here feeling every ounce of grief even as I write this. Better this than to bottle it up.

I think it's helping me to relate to people a little better. It's certainly helping me to connect with them on another level. A level I neither planned nor expected to find.

But that is going to make my testimony mean something all the more. It is going to give it the power it deserves because I would rather get to where I am going and know I ran a good race than to get there full of regrets of all the things I did/didn't do that compromised the very integrity of who I am.

I don't really know the purpose of this post today, I just wanted to write and see what came out of my grief-addled brain. If only to lessen the burden somewhat that I've been carrying for too long on my own.

Final Thought

In closing, I leave Jesus words to those weary with life's demands: -

"Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30 BSB

Until next time...

Peace!

===TLP===