Reaching Into The Veil

Hey everyone!

Well, last entry was certainly a bleak one, wasn't it?

I wasn't expecting for all of that to just come pouring and spilling out, it just sorta did, which to my mind says it needed to be said, if only to give me an accurate picture of the life I'm leading at the moment. It certainly is one of dashed hopes and crushed, yet unrealised dreams and spending enough time on looking at what is wrong, only confuses you into thinking that nothing is actually right with your life!

That is where you are wrong, bro'!

Firstly, I've taken my own oft spoken about advice upon here and reached out once again to those closest to me and let me tell you this, it's amazing how much support I truly do have the moment I sound the alarm, as it were.

Here was me, fooling myself into thinking that emotional support was non-existent...

Fools Gold This is Not

When the reality of the situation is that I am part of one of the biggest churches in Manchester that has structured itself in such a way as to have hands reaching out if you know where to stretch yourself.

Boy am I glad my picture was slanted, if only to remind me what an army we collectively are when we stand together. When we stand together, we fight together and when one of us falls, it's the job of the others to rally around and lift us up.

Hasn't that been my mandate on here? To offer what little wisdom & support I have within me to all of you who are reading this right now.

Just take a moment and let that sink in. Somewhere in your world there is someone who cares about you, even if those around you don't seem to; me!

Even a Machine Can Be Moved

I was practically moved to tears last night watching Youtuber Markiplier's emotional reaction to his fans watching his 8 million subscribers video. He admitted that he wanted to be there for each and every one of his followers literally, not just on the other side of a video monitor.

There was something so incredibly moving about that when I saw just how it touched him that he couldn't be there to literally "take your burdens", as he said.

It made my heart swell up with pride that someone, somewhere actually cares for me.

Everyone Can Care, If You Give Them Chance To

"Someone does care about me" I realised as I sat there almost, almost in tears. I'd already reached out the day before so to see this a day later was incredibly emotional because it reminded me that we are all part of one big machine.

If I've said it before, I'll say it again; these guys actually care about their community. Now I'm sure there are plenty of others out there who also care for those who'd rather sit and watch someone play videogames than watch TV, but these two (ED - that's Mark & Sean of Jacksepticeye channel!) are my two favourites in all of the world along with Felix, who we better know as Pewdiepie.

They make you feel!

To make someone a part of your world is incredibly humbling because it shows that you are not on some soapbox trying to ram your opinions down your throats. This is something that I can learn from as I've done my fair share of that on my blog.

But when my Youtube channel eventually launches, as I'm sure it will in the not too distant future, I have to remember that. Though I am haunted to this day at how stiff and fake my test video was, I felt the emotion it just was not at all coming across physically!

"Fake it 'til you make it!"

I've built part of my life on that ideology and it's done more harm than good in places so the road to freedom and recovery will be one looong a$$ road, but I'm kitted for the journey, I'm sure of it!

Final Thought

No matter the dragons, or demons, that you chase down the holes in your life always be prepared to get back up again because you never know where you'll be when you pick yourself up off the ground. That next person that you meet might have a change of heart about an issue that's been holding them back all these years.

Or better yet, you might just save a life!

One day at a time, at the minute, guys & girls, one day at a time.

Peace off!