Well how am I supposed to recover from the last post and I've only got just over an hour in which to do it?! :-D
I've left no stone unturned now that I've revealed one of my most deepest parts of who I am today; that I have never known a girlfriend.
You can throw all the stigmas at me that you like and I will catch them, I will mock them and I will eat them because I am the Stigma Eater! :-P
The Stigma Eater Liveth!
In all honesty, I suppose a post like the last one was always on its way because it was something like the seventh attempt to get out there just the fact that I've got a crush on someone. It's taken several re-writes as I very nearly went as far as revealing her name, though eagle-eyed viewers would remember what her initial was if they saw those posts that eventually were redacted and promptly deleted.
I wanted to follow on because I felt now that I have reached a new level of honesty with you, my faithful readers, it was high time I continued that trend and showed you that even we Christians, again, have issues we deal with just like the rest of the world.
But thanks to Ps. Sophia Barrett recently, I learned, or re-learned I don't know which it is, there's been that much buzzing round my head, for bringing me to a newer level of freedom. Ps. Sophia told us that we "are not our issues" allowing me to finally lay to rest certain ghosts that I've been carrying around since school age, so deeply did they go.
The last post was a revelation for many of you because I bet you wouldn't have thought it, would you? That someone like me could admit all that I did and yet is still here posting away. I'm not going to stop now... I've passed 4000+ views and there's no sign of the content slowing down!
Coming soon will see the return of my weekly broadcast, but I need a little more time before I do as it involves a special video treat. Meantime though, I'm going to be stepping up my text content to ensure that you always have something to read.
The Shallow Rule Sticks
What then to be said of feeling inadequate to one's cause?
That's what I felt when it came to thinking about how I was going to pursue this young lady I like...
That's what I felt when it came to realising the sheer size of empire I was going to be responsible for building...
That's what it felt like when I started to see just what sort of an impact I was having at my church...
I felt like I just didn't match up, like it was beyond me to be able to complete the task that Jesus has given me.
I'll answer that and swiftly decimate it all in one go as I tell you that, watching Ps. Steven Furtick of Elevation Church North Carolina today talk about how we use a "stick", or ruler to measure what we see and talk about how un/popular someone is and for the shallow people, how pretty or ugly someone is, whereas God uses "scales" to test the weight, the integrity of something/someone.
This was a distinct slap in the face because in my situation I had for some time inadvertently thought I knew better than God when it came to whether I could handle my little crush! :-O
When you start thinking like this, you realise that the power of your decisions can have an impact far greater than you imagine because if you are using the shallow nature of the ruler, then it will not satisfy, it will not last until you compare it with the longer term "scale" way of measuring the weight of a decision before making it.
You can make a snap judgement, get it wrong and then realise it was because you went off what you saw/felt/heard instead of weighing up, with God's help, the integrity of what you were looking to achieve.
Is it wrong for me to admit that there is something I'm looking to achieve as far as getting to know this wonderful young lady? A fast friend? Then what? I know what I would like to happen, dudes because I'm brave enough to admit that now! ;-)
We'll see, we'll see...
Final Thought
Bringing to a close this four part series of confessional postings that have wrought some interesting conclusions, you can rest assured that following on from this will see a brand new series called "Light/Weight" where I'll unpack a little more what I got on the whole 'decisions' scenario from Ps. Furtick.
Until then, watch the skies as always, bro's!
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