First of all I've seen the return of the "funk", which as you might have heard me refer to it before in other postings, clearly was trying to highlight to me that there were unresolved issues I had not fully seen to dealing with.
This may surprise some of you, but it may not for the longer-term readers who by now know that I've openly admitted to being less than perfect. A fact, this is, to shatter the myth that Christians, in general, believe that they are perfect and a cut above the rest.
Yes, I know I've joked about being a cut above the rest and almost a higher form of male in today's society, but that's only because what makes them tic is so far beneath what makes me tic, it's the very ground I walk on.
But I digress...
Let me put it this way, I've been battling on and off for some months now with depression, or to be more specific, I feel like my personality has been like a yoyo as circumstances came and went that tried to force me to define myself by them. It's easier for me to talk about now especially as I have had, as an unemployed brother, plenty of time to think about what is going well in my life and what maybe isn't.
I simply refrained from posting on here my struggle whilst in the midst of it because I did not want to bring anyone down with me and set off any of their triggers as far as depression is concerned.
Until I realised something...
People Need People
Upon admitting that, whilst I did not need the approval of said people, I had to admit that as a fully fledged member of the !Audacious movement in Manchester, there are people there who are ready to stand with me and fight the good fight right alongside me.
What I'm saying is quite simple really; make sure there are people around you whom you can count on to do life together.
I told you that this all started a couple of weekends back from a simple hug from my friend that spoke volumes to me because God used that moment to show to me that there are people standing in the breach waiting for me to call upon them if needed.
This then allowed me to realise that I needed to lay down my selfish pride I'd been relying upon all these years to do life solo, on my own with "no one" to count upon, save myself.
This AJ Styles-esque (in his latter days anyway at Impact Wrestling) attitude I was developing was actually at risk of segregating me off from others in church life. Naturally, this resulted in resentment towards others was borne out of a idea that I mistakenly needed to be accepted by them to be validated in life. It showed me, albeit falsely, I needed no one other than my own two feet to count upon to get me where I am going in life.
So you could say it was a period of deeply personal growth for me because I'd been there now for probably two years, so to finally get the message after all this time that it is far better to stand united rather than be divided and fall before the finish line.
Final Thought
I suppose I could ramble on, but I'm not going to because it's late into the night as it is, coming up to 2am on Friday morning.
All I ask of you, before I go, is that you enjoy this song and realise the truth in it that it, indeed, is "getting better, man"!
Peace off!
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