Hello everyone!
Okay, let's get this out of the way.
If you saw the original post of this week's episode you will know that I made a very startling revelation that I was done with this crush of mine.
The reality of the situation is that, whilst my feelings have not altered one bit for this person, what I am prepared to do has. Now, when I say "what I'm prepared to do", I am referring to how much pressure I can put myself under sometimes just to say hi to her.
What I have to do at this point is that make sure my steps are ordered by God and not by my feelings, which I am in danger of doing right now...
A God Ordained Plan
God definitely ordained that this would happen on this exact date at this exact time, so the fact that it has not come as a surprise to Him means that it is happening for a reason.I am just in the process of letting it all float to Heaven and be dealt with as only Heaven would allow it to be dealt with.
The only thing that I know right now is that I need some space from all of this because all the tears that I've cried have proven to me how deeply fond I've grown of this person. But my powerless nature to actually be able to do anything about it is quite unlike me, as anybody who knows me can tell you.
I'm a man of action!
God guiding my steps is something I have come to rely upon so much this past year since this crush broke for me, but I have gotten to the point right now where this song really rings true for me: -
Yes I DO Just Want You, Jesus
In saying "I came for You" it was simply my way of reminding myself why I go to church every week; there are people who are in a far worse state than me that need to be shown that Jesus is their answer to the question they have not yet asked!
Combine that song with this one and let's see what you've got: -
So, first is your reminder that there are others that need help just as much as you do...
Secondly, we should in reality be declaring that we just want Jesus & nothing else as I raised recently in my "Back to the Start" series of postings. In doing that we are in fact saying that nothing ever has the right to define either who we are or what we do: -
Someone may say, “I’m allowed to do anything,” but not everything is helpful. I’m allowed to do anything, but I won’t allow anything to gain control over my life.
1 Corinthians 6:12 (GW) emphasis added
Is my point coming across yet?
Yes, to be bold for a moment, I am completely potty about her, but the reality of the situation is that if she feels not the same then I have to move on!
I would like for it to be that she does feel something, but I cannot force what is not there now, can I?
Final Thought
As I bring this week's devotional to a close, I am left somewhat melancholic, if you can just humour me for a moment. Having had my crush broken, I now await to see what happens later on today at church and with it, probably the next time that I'll actually see her!
Time alone will tell, won't it?
Peace out!
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