Am I Proving "More Than Enough" Yet?

Hi there everyone!

I hope you're having a wonderful Monday, I know I am, albeit in some very challenging personal circumstances right now.

You can go back and check throughout the recent content that I've been churning out and if you want to know the specifics then look out for the one's that have "crush" in the title because those have been talking about a certain, um, matter that's close to my heart.

Whilst I may have broken my duck yesterday evening and actually spoke to her (ED - you mean you actually spoke to her finally?!), I'm still left awestruck by the work that I am undergoing as God goes ever deeper and takes me ever deeper into some personal issues that I'd previously kept in rooms welded shut for years...

Beaten Up, Yet Still Usable

What's in those rooms will never make it onto this blog, but what I've learned from them surely will and it will only become apparent to you, the reader, as I unpack the fallout from my many, many God-encounters that I've been having of late.

I've told my friend that in crushing on someone so hard it hurts enough to make me cry, I have had no choice but to get alone after church on a Sunday to write some thoughts down in my journal as well as get some time in reading my Bible app.

Yes, that's right, I cry almost on a daily basis because I like her that much! :-O

I'm not ashamed to admit that anymore, something I couldn't say in recent weeks because it was as though there was some shame leeching my emotional energy away within me due to the unchanging fact that I like someone so, so much it hurts.

My Social Media Ban - Closer to My True North

But what comes next for me is going to be a shock because I have, today, clocked in over two months away from social media.

This was whilst I re-grounded myself in God and in His plan for my life, as well as finding my True North, which I've already discussed in some measure elsewhere in this blog.

My aim has been to get back to a place with God where He takes my priority and runs with my life Himself.

I have been greatly encouraged today from my friend, Peter, that people have been inspired by the content I was putting out before I left social media, which is great because it shows that I was at least inspiring someone!

He wants me to come back, to make this my ID4, or "independence day" if you like...

Cracked, All Beaten Up & Shaken Down

But that's a no-go just yet because I don't want it to be my independence day!

Right now, I'm totally sold out and reliant, dependent even, on God right now to not only help me treat this person I'm crushing on with respect, but also to treat whoever that I meet along the way that is the journey of my life in the manner that I would wish myself to be treated.

I may feel broken, battered and bruised right now, or to quote what I put in my journal last night "I'm an emotional fu"... no, I can't put that here as God is helping me with feeling like that at times!

All I know is that God has got me right in the palm of His hand, which is not only where I should be, but is where I intend on staying for the duration.

I'm scared!

Too right I'm scared!

But with God by my side I can do anything!

Final Thought

Am I proving that, to me, God is "More Than Enough" for my circumstances yet?

I don't know, you can be the judge of that.

All I know today is that the content that I've read whilst actually being in this situation has shown me that I'm a lot closer to my True North than I actually realised before I came off social media on April 23rd 2016.

I just need to stay in my Saviour's presence right now because it's scary out there; it's a dark, scary world (sic!) out there and only He can get me through it!

If you're struggling, like me, to cope with life's challenges then rest easy because everyone's struggling with something: -

I've been here before, haven't I, in posting this song?

But take heart, because like the above song says "God You are greater"...

Watch the skies!