Action in the Chamber of Not-So-Secrets

Hello everyone!

It's interesting how recent events and, more specifically, recent posts on here can get a guy thinking a lot about a lot of things all at the same time.

Over this Christmas & New Year period, I have had a lot of time to myself to question a lot of things and I'm feeling challenged right now. Challenged to make sure that God stays first in my life, even in spite of what I'm going through.

Firstly, I'm not ashamed & I never will be of a certain post where I made a bold and frank claim regarding my crush...

Secondly, for those of you that are offended at my candour that I... well you've read that already. But it's okay, I don't blame you, it's not your fault (ED - but if you are offended then why are you reading this?) although... well, you have chosen to take offense, which is nothing to do with me whatsoever, you made the choice! :-P

For that, I'm not sorry, like I always say it's my blog!

Honestly? This is my walk and it is one that challenges the bejeezus out of me every single day because of how I'm feeling for this person clearly affects me a great deal.

I can't deny it, I'd have to be in denial to do so (sic!)! :-P

So much so, in fact, that aside from no job at the moment, these are the two challenges that I'm facing that constantly try to draw my focus away from God and His timing onto me and my own sense of timing.

In other words, I start to rely on my own efforts and timings and we all know how that story ends, don't we?

All that I'm trying to do, in the meantime, is to keep praying, keep seeking God & His input on my situation, keep journalling, keep writing my way through my struggle on here & keep taking in my ministry programmes thanks to the very generous churches that put their content on the Youtube.

Final Thought

The only thing that I know is that the way that I feel doesn't change from day-to-day so it's pretty clear then that what I'm feeling goes more than just surface deep. This is a good sign to me because it proves it is more than boy-sees-girl-boy-likes-girl.

I'm just going to see if I can say more than nothing to her the next time that I see her! ;-)

Peace!