Putting Too Much Pressure On the Wound (Or Do You Know Whose I Am?)

Hey everyone!

I hope you're having a good second day of your week so far, I can't complain...

Well, alright, I could, but it wouldn't change a damn thing...

For instance, I was told not so long ago by my friend Matt that I'm putting too much pressure on myself as far as my crush goes and the lack of progress that I'm seeing as I try to get to know her.

My response goes like this...

When I said "if God wants me to do anything about this then He's going to have to move me into position as I can't do it anymore", I meant that I'm acknowledging that every time I try to do something and actually talk to her nothing happens, I can't get the words to come out, I just... can't!

It's not for a lack of trying, I tell you, I just feel like I'm under some kind of gagging order because God knows I'm afraid that I'll say too much too soon. So God, in recognising that is using His gracious hand and circumstances to silence me for the meantime whilst this all develops into what I believe He has already shown me.

All that I am trying to do is express that as much as I might want or try to speak to her, I am not able to at this moment in time and that hurts, it burns even!

I'm just trying to acknowledge my own humanity here and say that where I lack, I believe Christ can make up for me in abundance!

Now you can laugh, or you can do like I did and get upset as it is not like I'm not trying, I am. The point I have to keep reminding myself of, is just this that Ps. Steven Furtick mentions in an excellent motivational video: -

"Christ is in me, I AM enough!"

Without a thought like that, it is little wonder I didn't stick around long in the last couple of jobs I have had because I thought it was all about me making it work, instead of realising that it was God through me making it work.

Final Thought

So you can read all of this that I'm putting and you can think that I either am losing my focus on God, or you can admit that maybe, just maybe a deeper revelation is setting in that with Christ in me, I can do all things and so I should start doing so from Philippians 3:16: -

Nevertheless, we must live up to what we have already attained.

For I could say that I have learned so much but if I am not unpacking what I say on here and outworking it in my life then not only am I living a lie, I am preaching one too!

#BOOM

Peace!