Bandages & Wounds are God's Speciality, NOT Mine!

Last time out I made quite a bold claim that went something like if I'm not living out the word that I am preaching then I am preaching a lie, aren't I?

Whether or not you agree with that is not the point at this stage, the reality is that the verse I originally was going to quote I nearly misquoted before I uploaded this post, yet when I found the one I did quote, it slapped me across the face!

I guess I'd better follow it up...

It is one thing for me to write so much about what having a crush on someone is doing to me. It is another to write what God is saying to me through this (ED - that He is still on the throne and will still be there when this all resolves how it's supposed to resolve). It is another thing entirely for me to act both out of character and out of the manner of scripture as I live this out.

The point is I still like her, more than, arguably, I've ever done before.

With this being said then, I know that I have to make sure that my focus stays on God first and trying to get to know this person second because the moment the priorities switch around... well, then you can argue that I'm following after an earthly relationship rather than one with God!

Let me just recap that verse I quoted and see what I can do with it: -

Only let us live up to what we have already attained. Phil 3:16 (NIV)

Now, whilst one person thought I was switching around a desire for an aforementioned earthly relationship, how I was to respond to an accusation like that was key; it would reveal where my heart really was pointed.

I have to remember then, every day, that this is just one person's opinion and I should not let it define how I behave. To that effect, I have had nobody... not a single person questioning my behaviour as if I'd somehow gone off the rails and let my feelings for someone affect how I conduct my life.

But that's only because I play my cards very close to my chest on this matter as I can't have this getting back to her as common gossip.

Let me tell it to you, then, in facts instead: -

1. Just this year alone, I have watched a dozen messages since 2nd of January alone from Elevation Church, Life.Church and Arise church to name just a few;
2. My prayer life has increased, it has not diminished since this broke like a fever so you could say that I'm talking to God more about it, not less; and
3. I have been sacrificing other earthly activities from watching TV in order for me to get in my Bible more, so, again, you could argue that I'm making more effort to get into God's Word & find out what He is saying about how I should handle my situation.

Final Thought

In the ground that I've already made up at this point, I have to bear in mind here that my standards for a godly relationship do not slip or deviate as God should be my number one priority that I seek after, which right now, He is!

I would honestly say that even above her, my feelings for God far outweigh and surpass all of this. It has to be the case, it just has to, otherwise I'm letting my spiritual relationship get warped by earthly influences and that's a complete no-go as far as I'm concerned.

Closing out this before it gets too long, I think it's safe to say that I'm still on the right track in following this out to its natural conclusion.

One day soon, hopefully, I'll tell her (ED - like his friend told him, when he's ready to!) and see how she takes the news that I have liked her for so long, the closer I get to her, the more the earth seems to move for me. :-)

Take that and make of it what you will, folks! :-P