How y'all doing? I trust you're having a "good" Friday today?
I know I am and it's largely in part due to the number of days I'm better able to clock up where I just don't feel the pull of hopeless despair that I have been when in the worst of my depression bouts.
You could say it's all a matter of perspective...
I'll admit that it shouldn't be the case given that for the past couple of nights I've been up til around 6 in the morning just watching videos on Youtube from the Angry Grandpa Show. Ordinarily at this point, I'd provide a link to one of the videos, but due to the coarse language contained in many of these clips I shall refrain simply because I'm supposed to be showing a little, no wait, a lot of thought in what I link to on here given my raison d'etre of representing God on this earth.
How are things looking on the job front?
Better, I'd say, ever since I made the commitment to start ringing round agencies to say 'have you got any jobs going?'.
I've no interviews lined up at the minute, but that could all change and I am expecting it to as well!
In the next few days, I'm looking to have my car battery replaced too, so that will be boss, especially as it will mean day trips can resume. Man, has this been difficult, having to rely on others for a change when I have admittedly built my life upon self-reliance and self-effort.
I see now that this has been all part of a bigger problem for me because people need people. I mean, don't get me wrong, I've done damn fine splendid for myself over these years, thanks be to God. It is a miracle in itself that I'm here because I never could have imagined I'd be living on my own early into my thirties thanks to an unfortunate picked I painted for a while like Steve Carell's character in "The 40 year old virgin".
It is at this point I stop and say that I bear you no ill will if you still live with your parents because, for me, they were my formative years and without them I would not be the man I am today.
I've learnt not to hold my past against myself because, as a preacher said recently: -
"It is Satan that reminds you where you're from but it is God that reminds you where you are going!"I'll risk going preachy here if I continue, which I intend to save for a future posting so let me just say this then, in closing.
No matter who you are, no matter where you've been, no matter what it is that you think no one can accept you for... YOU'RE WRONG!!!
I used to struggle with that and until, realising that I have been blessed with some truly !Audacious people in my life, had often wondered how I would struggle to make it through to the end of life with all of me intact.
Be who you were called to be today, be no one else because there never was, never is and never will be another one just like you!
Peace off!
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