Just how in the hell am I supposed to start this one?
Pardon the abruptness but if you'd have lived through the kind of day I've just gone through, you too would be wondering how to accurately convey what you're thinking/feeling right now.
Don't get me wrong this is not a negative report, just the complete opposite if I'm honest...
So Honest You Want to Cry
Right, let's start at the beginning, this morning, as the plasterers had turned up to work some more on my kitchen I was left to do my own thing.
So first off, I watched a message from Creflo Dollar Ministries that was, interestingly preceded by the message that from 12th October, it would disappear from the listings because they had opted out of the cost share programme that TBNuk are running in order to host international ministry programmes on their channel. I have no comments on that because this is not the time.
Creflo's message was one of reminding us that it was not anything that we could have done to earn our salvation, it was all about Jesus!
Sound teaching, right?
Then I watched Answers with Bayless Conley another leader whose teaching I value greatly. Get this...
His message was asking are we going to be like Abraham and move forward into the new things that God is doing, or are we going to be like Lot and keep looking back because that will stop us from entering into the new season.
BOOM! Exactly what Ps. Jason Alexander was saying yesterday, as I've already put!
Prediction? More of the Same... Tears!!!
Okay, onto the crux of the matter, "Day 2" of my 7 Days of Praise II celebration was all about continuing to lay the groundwork of the work that God has been doing in my heart at the moment.
Cue more tears... a looot more tears falling to the ground!
Why? Well, my God in heaven, I do not think I could be more thankful for how yesterday went, with my confession regarding a certain amazing lady that I actually spoke to, for once!
This song did it for me: -
It broke the dam and burst open the floodgates that started the tears of absolute pure joy falling down my face as the Spirit did indeed break my walls down, right the way to the very ground!
Have you ever felt so thankful for one particular event that you just fall apart thinking about it?
For me, and this sounds lame even to say this, but it was the very first conversation I had with... nope, I nearly said her name, but I'm not going to! I am NOT falling into that trap, dude!
I did, through that song, through Oceans by United Hillsong and you know what? I'M NOT AFRAID ANY MORE!!!
I'll admit that I cried, why? Because it might just help someone to know that sometimes, it is indeed okay to cry.
I just kept telling God how thankful I was for how things panned out yesterday, you see, I told Him I only needed one chance to speak to her... but I needed more than one apparently that day... and He gave me another, and another, and another, until I did it... now I've got to be careful here, because remember, I said this is only our first conversation!
I have no game plan, I realised this past few days that my playbook is decidedly empty... but that's going to work to my advantage and favour in the days ahead whatever happens.
Onto the first preach: -
Final Thought
Now I could go into an aaage of talking about what I got from this message but I'll just say the following sums it up: -
C ycle - Sometimes you have to let God break the cycle you're in;
L evel - The higher you go, the harder it gets & the more effort it needs;
O rigin - When you're faced with difficult thoughts, identify their origins;
U sage - When I feel overencumbered, I need to check what I'm carrying;
D irection - Sometimes, I have to remember there really is one direction... up!
Coming right up is part two where I'll look at my reactions from the second worship session in the evening and an amazing preach from Ps. Glyn Barrett of my very own !Audacious Church.
Peace off!
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