IMPORTANT: After some serious consideration and thoughtful prayer, I have since redacted some information that should not have made it into recent posts.
I think I was starting to get a little too ahead of myself in recent posts because it is not my place to comment in exactly the way I did.
It is not my plan at work, but God's!
It's just that everything's got a little too real for me right now and yes, I have buckled under the self-inflicted pressure and decided to delete the information that I placed out there in the public domain.
Let me be more careful what I share in future.
Let me be more careful what I share in future.
Still, what I have left in is quite a bold step, isn't it? Saying that God has picked out a partner for me, and it's a journey that I have been on for the past, well, ever!
It's a Crazy, Crazy, Crazy Love!
Some of you might not understand why I've done this, so the best way that I can describe it is that me writing it down upon here is my way of laying claim to it and being prepared to publicly declare that I am heading towards something life-changing; the day when I, well, get married!
I am not kidding you, though, I do feel this overwhelming urge to pull the posts into 'draft' mode and savage the hell out of them, thus removing the offending content.
But who, exactly does it offend?
- Me?: - Hell's no, this is a journey that I've been on all my life to get me to this point!
- The young woman in question?: - It shouldn't because it's a promise that involves her!
Well, I've gone a bit balls to the wall, now, haven't I?!
Admitting that I'm on the way to knowing whom I am supposed to fall in love with? :-O
I'm just waiting to see how these pieces fall into place!
Figuring Out What's Not Meant to be Figured Out
I cannot for the life of me figure out how it's going to happen, but that's quite alright because I know Someone who does and He's infinitely better at hitting the mark than Cupid ever was!
I'm on such rough terrain right now because I feel intimidated by all of this, intimidated to the point that I have two thoughts battling in my mind: -
- that I'm not good enough for her; and
- that she could never fall for someone like me
This is my cry today; that when her and I do fall in love (ED - Though he's well on the way to doing that already!), she will not let me let her go, not now and not ever!
This of course is a message directly to her; that she would first and foremost make it to me!
I'm here, waiting with bated breath, to quote Shakespeare.
Final Thought
Of course, now I'm in the mud having unloaded my heart for the whole freaking world to see (ED - well, that assumes the 'whole freaking world' as you've put, actually gives a damn about you, lol!), I'm no doubt going to get people asking me for more about it, but unfortunately it's my race to run, not theirs!
So, coming up at weekend, I'll be tackling the next big issue that I'm battling with at the moment; intimidation.
Peace out!
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