Hey everyone!
I hope you're all having a wonderful start to another week?
I know I am after yesterday's truly awesome service at !Audacious and it's all thanks to a little something I like to call 'no matter how hard you knock me back, the stronger I will BOUNCE back'!
Now, however you read that, all I am simply stating is that I am still in quite a state of shock over how liberated my worship was yesterday as I thought "man, the hell with this, I'm sick of being held back by this silly little crush" and went down to the front as we signed off the meeting with one final praise song.
I never expected me to pull off some of the moves in the praise pit that I was doing!
You know what?
Afterwards, I knew something had happened, I just knew it; I had reached a greater level that day...
What Going Forward Means
You have seen how, in some of my recent posts I have bleated how powerless I have felt around a certain person, right? Well that's what's impacted me so much and I have mistakenly allowed it to keep me from going on occasions.
I mean, sure, I'm not there at all three services at the moment, but that's in part to do with the accident I had just over a week ago. Also, it's for the reason I have admitted to you in the previous paragraph.
I'm not ashamed to admit that because it's where I've been at for so long, in fact, it's where I got stuck at for so long because I knew the direction that I was heading in, was truly intimidated by it (ED - he still is!) and allowed it to cloud my judgement and warp my sense of what was real to me.
Now that I breached a new level in worship on Sunday, I'm expecting the storm clouds that have been besetting me all about for so long to start to dissipate.
Why?
I realised something; if I go around letting other people's opinions get into my head over my situation concerning a wife, then I'm taking away not only my focus from God, but my belief in the potential for something miraculous to happen!
I know God can work around that but to me, when He spoke back in 2009, I knew that it was going to happen, just like today I know I'm getting closer and closer to this person, whoever she turns out to be.
Yes, it is a big focus for me right now, because it's all to do with the pieces that have been floating around for seven (?) years now finally starting to circle ready for landing!
Again, I believe in the potential for a miracle so we'll see what happens going forward!
It's hard sometimes, because all this information that I'm capable of retaining can be such a burden to carry, such a burden to bear that I have to either tell somebody, or blurt it all down on here.
It's cost me friends, it's brought people closer to me I wasn't expecting, but the point is I'm still alive today, so it's not the breaking of me at all, not by any measure!
A Collapsing Timeline
I want to talk, to say so much more, but I'm bound at the moment by certain limitations that I believe it best I don't start filling in details just yet. The point is, I have them ever since my timeline collapsed in upon itself earlier this year.
That is an experience I cannot talk about in too much detail because it involves me lying flat on my floor feeling completely overwhelmed by what I'm faced with, and the way God moved that night, it left me with a literal bloody nose!
What it does mean for me is that I have to keep going to church going forward. I have to keep going to my church, I have to keep seeking God and I have to keep seeking out this person I'm supposed to draw closer to every time I'm around them.
It will take time, that is for sure, but I'm ready to start pushing on, to start stepping out and to start embracing this new season for what it really is; a chance for God to lead me further, higher and faster than I could ever have imagined.
God can do in a matter of seconds what it takes people months, or years, to do!
Final Thought
Well, I think that about wraps up this additional post for now, but I'll be sure to revisit this later in the week to talk some more about my plans going forward as I look to become everything that God has created me to be and I mean everything, literally!
So, with that in mind, I want you all to keep your dreams alive, keep them as the reason that you get up in a morning and you will start to see things happen as the universe gets in line with your words that you speak.
Remember, as Joel Osteen says "you cannot talk defeat and expect to have victory"!
Peace out!
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