From Unbelief to Intimidation

But the men who had gone up with him said, "We can't attack those people; they are stronger than we are." Numbers 13:31

I'm just writing these thoughts on Thursday night, even though this won't make it live until weekend, whilst listening to my all time favourite classical composer; André Rieu conducting his Johann Strauss Orchestra.

This week and for the next however many weeks that it takes for the point to stick, I'm going to be looking at an issue that is very close to my heart and one that I'm personally living through every single day; intimidation and how damaging it can be if we let it...

You see, the reason that I've chosen the reading that I have this week is it highlights some of the obstacles we can often put in the way of God trying to work out His divine plan for our lives.

The first obstacle? Underestimating your own abilities.

The Damaging Power of Underestimation

What did I put in one of my preludes to this week's post? That I considered myself as someone that the young lady I am interested in wouldn't be interested right back.

Isn't that a practical admission of doubting my own abilities?

I also admitted recently that I believe in my own abilities, which puts at definite odds what I'm saying now doesn't it?

They are not mutually exclusive, they are simply an admission from me that, whilst I can easily enough say that I believe in my talents that I've been given, I don't always see myself as someone to love.

But that's just the best part of it all though; it's not about me or what I feel, it's about God and what He did for me over two thousand years ago!

So, to facing my own demons now, I have come face to face so many times with inadequacy at the moment because I don't know what it's like to be in a relationship. This made me question whether I really had what it took to be the man, my lady needs me to be...

Again, let me refer you to my previous point that IT IS NOT ABOUT ME!!!

Going Through WHOEVER I Have To!

For too long and too easily was I so concerned about wondering if I had it in me to allow a woman to fall in love with me when I've never been down that road before.

Let me quote what I said to a friend not so long ago: -

"I will go through anyone, and I mean ANYONE to have her by my side!"

Am I clear enough yet that I'm not giving up on this road?

My fire, my passion is lit to see this through to the very end and now I fully see that I do not have to do anything about it, for it is in God's hands to see us come together!

#BOOM

Man!

The point is, the outcome for all of this is no longer in my hands, in fact it NEVER WAS IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!

I kept trying to make the outcome stay in my hands instead of recognising this for what it was; a gift from God heading my way!

In Intimidation Let the Answers Reveal Themselves

So let's get some biblical perspective now, shall we?

The representatives of the Israelites, instead of taking the land of Canaan as they were instructed, as soon as they had returned started spreading negativity as they told the people that they just weren't cut out to take over the land that God had given them.

This is part of the battle; sometimes you have to be willing to take what God is giving you!

Sometimes He can be stood over your situation trying to hand you a solution/provision and you're too busy asking Him for it that you fail to see that it's right in front of you waiting for you to reach out your hands and grasp it!

Final Thought

So, facing down my own personal demon of inadequacy as I ride out this storm, I know that I have to keep going to my church, keep taking in the ministry that I have been, keep feeding into my church and watch what God does in weaving the two of us together!

What I want you to look at today is what you're actually believing for and whether or not you have written it off as impossible.

Nothing is impossible with God!

Peace out!