Hello everyone!
As you can tell from the title this actually is not one where I'll wax lyrical like I have been doing these past few weeks about a certain crush I'm having on someone!
As a matter of fact, I've just finished coding my first game; a choose your own adventure-style one!
Yay! Go me...
A Time for Honesty and a Time for Silence
I'll be honest with you now, recent postings in my "crush" series have really got me to thinking deeply about whether I should be talking about this so openly/freely on here.
I've made the defence that "it is my blog" and I'll basically do it "whether anyone likes it or not". But the reality of the situation is that, because this involves my feelings for another person, I do not know if it is right to continue posting like this so, for now, I'm going to try and keep my thoughts to my own personal journal.
I keep having these attacks of conscience so I think it's time I listened to them, again, and withdrew any future postings about this subject. It still might get mentioned, just not in the detail that I've been going into. Some things are best kept between me & God and as this is causing me enough strife, I consider it great benefit that I withdraw it for the time being, if only to make sure that I'm trying to keep my focus on Jesus, my number one aim right now.
The truth is that I just don't want to upset her or anyone close to me by talking about this now because, yes, I have been hung up about this person now for some months.
I realise now that I need to leave the pressure off and see what happens because God has everything in hand and under control.
What is talking about it doing? Only increasing the pressure I've been putting on myself to perform well enough for her to see the real me and like me for it!
We will see how long this lasts, I just know that, right now, I have to get my focus fully on Jesus because I cannot have any distractions, not with where I am headed!
You could say that I've been my own worst enemy in keep talking about it like this, but you live, you learn, huh?
Final Thought
As I close these final few thoughts, I am left wondering what the future holds now I've stymied my outpouring of my feelings that I've been undergoing.
Know that, whatever happens, my enforced honesty will still be present and correct and you'll still notice my thoughts making their way down to my devotionals. But I just need to make sure that my focus is nowhere than on Jesus right now!
Peace out!
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