Crush Me Do Part II: Victory in the Making

Even though I am writing this right after the last part, it's not going to go up until today, Tuesday, but that's the price that I pay these days for having a lot to say.

I don't want to make it sound like I'm obsessing over something/one that I shouldn't be, I just want to make sure everyone who reads this is aware that even as followers of Christ, we too have struggles.

But it is even in great struggles like this that, with great pride, I take comfort in a verse like this: -

I have said these things to you so that, united with me, you may have shalom. In the world, you have tsuris. But be brave! I have conquered the world! John 16:33 (CJB)

I don't even need to explain why I take comfort, do I?

It says "in the world you have tsuris" which means troubles/distress, it was Jesus' way of admitting a simple fact; we have troubles. That's it. That's a fact. But in Him we have a Source of "shalom", our peace.

I like what links the "tsuris" with the statement that He, Jesus, has conquered the world: -

Be brave...

Wow!

That's what I need to do right now and it is exactly what I am trying to do every single day; to be brave!

I'm going to have to be a whole heap of brave if I step out the way I'm planning on Thursday and it's going to be so funny because NO ONE WILL SEE IT COMING!!!

My behaviour some might see as irrational, but like I said recently, having seen my timeline collapse upon itself whereby God has shown me in His infinite wisdom, what is to come for me and also when, it is no freakin' wonder I'm all in a daze!

It's good though, because it has shown me that there are so many people cheering me on at !Audacious Church that there might just be hope for me yet!

I use a lot of words in these posts, I know that, I just want to get it across that I'm super serious about trying to get to know this person that I'm "super keen to get to know", in my own words, that...

Wow!

Hearing that phrase back again as I mull those words over in my mind, it's no wonder she said what she said; she had me figured out that I really did make it obvious that I like her!

#OOPS

I am just glad that I have kept going to church, even if it has been sporadic at times because I was not going to allow myself to say anything hurtful to her for rejecting me the first time.

Am I daft for wanting to go back a second time? I don't know.

I just want to try and get across that I just want to get to know her and the best way I can do that is BY NOT FORCING ANYTHING!!!

I think this is where I come up trumps because, whilst my interactions with her have been limited of late, the fact that I have already spoken to her has allowed me to show that her initial rejection was not going to stop me from saying hello to her the next time I saw her.

Yes it did hit me really hard when she rejected me, but that was not going to stop me because as I know all too well, what Stuey sets his mind to, HE GETS!!!

It is that persistence I'm glad that I was careful in using because I did not want to come over all stalker-like, even though I really don't want to give up until I get my yes to a coffee.

But, whatever... I'm complete without her, I'm complete without a girlfriend and I'm complete just as I am; a child of the Most High King!

Final Thought

Is it finally sinking in for me yet, then, that I'm gradually in a better place than I was before now?

That is why I'm glad she turned me down in December, it gave me a chance to reassess and revisit a lot of old hurts and wounds allowing God to heal them once and for all, leading me into a place where I'm better able to handle whatever life throws at me.

Is it also right to say that, maybe just maybe, I'm a little less scared of approaching her again in due course?

Not by much folks, maybe only a few grains less, but still a modicum less.

Peace out!