I'm writing this as the Mavericks come from my phone, having posted then redacted a post I made last night about the acquisition of the awesome film "The Revenant" starring Oscar winner Leonardo DiCaprio (ED - even I don't have to say that it's about time to that one!).
Today, I want to take a different approach to the one that I mentioned in that post and instead of "peering into the abyss", I'm going to trace a little journey you'll remember we've all been on as "60 Seconds of Faith" has been running its course this year...
Creating Something Big With My Words
First off, we started looking at the account of Creation and spent something like eight weeks unpacking what it means when God speaks to any person or situation; results happen and situations change!
After that, and partly because I'm currently walking through a crush at the moment, I thought it would be an idea for us to look at what it means when you find yourself struggling with doubts, be they personal doubts about self-sufficiency or adequacy or whatever. During those episodes, I raised the fact that God still spoke, He still speaks and He will still do what He has said.
Next up came a look at what happens when fear, otherwise known as the dream killer, tries to intimidate you into believing that things cannot turn around or the results that you want.
Which now brings us to today; in the midst of a series looking at what it means to make sure that you know that God is more than enough for your situation.
It's a logical journey and one I'm sure we've all faced at some point. I mean, some of us may be trapped at one stage or another and it is from here that I'm bringing this post.
Just because you feel trapped, does not mean that you are trapped!
Wanting to Pull Away, With Necessary Casualties
I mean, sure, I admit it that I'm feeling like I want to pull away from creative because of how awkward I feel about being around my crush. Like super awkward, super duper awkward!
Honestly? This is because I've managed to convince myself that if I talk to her for long enough, she'll know that I like her because I feel like it'd be written all over my face just like it's written all over the inside of me. But I've got to work through it, not past it, because I know why this is here!
Honestly? This is because I've managed to convince myself that if I talk to her for long enough, she'll know that I like her because I feel like it'd be written all over my face just like it's written all over the inside of me. But I've got to work through it, not past it, because I know why this is here!
Just don't ask me how, okay?!
Why?
Have I not already said it before that my crush does not define me?!
I mean, sure, I talk about it a lot on here, I even go as far as mentioning what it is doing to me emotionally, but it is only one part of who I am and what I am walking through at the moment. Equally, I know that God is more than enough for what I am facing otherwise I wouldn't be sitting here today at my table tapping out this latest entry.
Where do I go from here though?
I can hear you asking me that from here, because I'm asking myself the same, the very same question!
Especially when I am currently only at two out of our three services on a Sunday at the moment because I have been trying to, after a fashion, limit my chances at interacting with my crush because, as I said in a prior posting, I don't want to pressure her by always being around her (ED - though he has already admitted to wanting to hug and kiss her, like, seriously, a lot!).
Also, to be brave for a moment and repeat a point I've just made, it's because I feel it would be written all over my face that I like her... all over it!!! :-D
Will I get back to all three? I don't know yet.
Also, there's been another casualty that I'm not afraid to admit to; the lack of my attendance at our Sunday lunch club with my fellow friends because I need time alone with God. Time to pray. Time to think. Time to write my thoughts down in my journal to make sure that I'm heading only in the right direction!
Final Thought
Whether people agree or not with my conduct is not the point today, the point is that I am holding myself responsible for all that I do, and just as equally all that I say because it is on those things that I will be judged at the end of time.
I want to keep going to creative, that's a given fact, but feeling like the whole earth is trembling the closer you get to someone that you like is a challenge in my book that makes me seriously think about my next steps.
The earth is clearly moving for me in this, but is it for her?
Only God knows and that's all that matters for now because I'm following my calling to destiny, even if it calls me home sooner!
Watch the skies!
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