Hi everyone!
This post comes in an intriguing time for me as I continue my pursuit of God and His calling for my life.
I am all for having vision in life and, in fact, if I'm completely honest, I would be lost without mine because it has kept me going for something like six plus years now.
Sure, I've had my up's and down's as God has taught me just what His plan is going to involve, but the reality of the situation is that I know, that I know, that I know exactly where I am heading!
What about you? Do you know where you're heading...?
Is there a dream that you are hoping to achieve before you pass on? I am and, thanks to God, I know that it involves my continual attendance at my church; !Audacious.
From Sporadic to Drastic, God is Still There!
You may remember, the dark period I walked through at the turn of the year where I was sporadically attending, whilst still writing upon here. My mission was always to return and, thankfully I can say that I am back albeit in a changing form.
In fact I'm a 'changing man' and I'm not built on shifting sands (ED - yeah, like TLP hasn't quoted that song before!)!
Even as these words fall onto a screen, I admit I have my doubts about what is coming, which is only natural. Truth be told, I am faltering between living by faith and living by sight.
It shouldn't be the case, but it is a natural fact when you realise that, try as you might, you are not perfect and are bound to worry, bound to make mistakes sometimes.
The thing that I have to do is constantly remind myself that God's word never, absolutely NEVER, comes back null and void: -
It is the same with my word. I send it out, and it always produces fruit. It will accomplish all I want it to, and it will prosper everywhere I send it. Isaiah 55:11 (NLT) emphasis added
So therefore, I can look at that, look at my journal which is starting to contain some startlingly specific revelations and realise that God is going to bring each one of them to pass in His own sweet time!
The problem I have is that, because of all the revelations, because of all the 'startlingly specific' details that God has given me (ED - and because he recently had a revelation that left him with a literal bloody nose!), I feel disjointed, unplugged even, from reality itself.
Let me take a moment to explain...
Feeling Lost But NOT Broken
It's going to sound odd and maybe a little bit daft, but as always, it's my blog so I'm entitled to every once in a while.
With the experiences I have had whilst dealing with my crush, God has gradually been revealing to me the next steps that are going to come with some very specific events upon my timeline (ED - or his life, to be more accurate) that have to happen in a certain order.
Proving that God is a good God, all of the details have blown my mind because I look back to the points where He gave me those details and, even now, I'm blown away that He is that good to us!
I have often wondered if it was possible to achieve such a sense of spirituality that you can get glimpses of your future, well now I know!
My friends all told me to 'seek God first' before my crush because that is the only way to build a relationship on foundations that will last. So that's what I've been doing, taking in ministry from the likes of Lakewood Church, Elevation Church, Jesse Duplantis Ministries amongst my home church; !Audacious.
As far as I am concerned, like my amazing friend Matt told me just over a week ago; my focus should always, always be on eternity because that's what I'm heading towards and a search for a life partner is but one thin strand of my life.
"...but one thin strand of my life" - I like that! ;-)
Let me just bring out a song at this point: -
"I know, I know, You are my forever" goes part of that song and it is simple, straightforward, yet an often missed part of a believer's life.
Too often we get chasing after things and people that we forget we are to live for His kingdom first: -
Three powerful words...Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. Matthew 6:33 (NLT)
Above
All
Else!
Three powerful words yet they are so often overlooked and under-consumed as we go about our daily lives. I know I have had to check myself on numerous occasions to make sure the crush was not becoming an idol ahead of my God because the moment that happens, I am headed for swift disaster!
I am just super grateful to God to have planted me in a church with so many amazing friends to pull me through this difficult period!
Pulling Through
They have helped dragged me through this rough couple of months that it's gradually starting to even out now as I seek with evermore abandonment to live out my God-given calling.
Who would have thought that being told 'I don't like you in that way', (ED - which is understandable given that the two of you are still relative strangers, bro'!) could have set me on the path that I am on now, closer to God than I have ever been before and even more determined to see this all through to the very end!
In fact, I created a hashtag to help remind myself of why I'm doing what I'm doing: -
#IWillDieBeforeIGiveUp
I don't think I really need to explain that one, do I?
Final Thought
It's all down to remind me that, no matter what happens, people's words will never ever stop me from achieving my God-given goals!
So here's to achieving everything God has called me to, and here's to the same for you! ;-)
Watch the skies!
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