Well,
What can I say that hasn't already been said recently?
I've got to learn to take the up's with the down's as far as my walk goes because I, for one, am not going to lie down and give up without a fight as far as my battle with depression goes.
It comes, like a fog, an interminable fog that seems to never end resting upon my mind and gradually pressing my spirits down and down and down until I cannot stand any longer.
But I'm still standing!
Looking Like a True Survivor
This is not going to be one of those negative posts, it's simply a reminder to anyone else out there who is in a similar boat to me, the mist will disperse, the feelings will lift and there is always, always a reason to fight on another day!
By the time this goes live, I'll be shortly meeting up with a friend of mine to talk through some recent troubles that I've been having, all of which have been documented upon here.
To be in a position like I am today, where things make sense, everything is calm and tranquil is a reminder that it is, again, perfectly okay not to be okay sometimes.
It's also perfectly okay to reach out to people. There's nothing at all wrong with reaching out for help. But there is something wrong when the people you turn to become gods in your life.
What I mean by a thought like this is that the moment you start turning to people not just for help but for them to solve your problems for you, well that is the start of a dangerous road as you take your eyes off your own destiny and onto a road that somehow, you feel only they can approve before you say or do anything.
You have relinquished control, at this point, to this man or this woman as you will find that the less you want to exercise control in your life, the more other people will be able to take control for and sometimes of you.
The Illusion of Control is Strong
The problem is that control is merely an illusion that society paints as possible for us to attain. The reality is that none of us truly have control or else we would be able to deflect that illness, that tragedy, that struggle away from our lives.
Man, I see so many times what happens as my focus drifts off my calling and onto other things and they always become a dangerous item as they start to replace God as my go to for comfort, help and advice.
It's too easy to do!
Take every time I talk about my crush, every time I talk about it I make it bigger in my mind when the reality of the situation is that God is far bigger than anything I could ask, think or imagine (yes the last two are separate because the latter taps into the dreamer's mentality!).
Final Thought
I could wax lyrical about this and I'm learning when to bring my posts to a close better now, thanks to my recent eight part series on the account of creation.
It has taught me that, if I am serious about becoming some kind of speaker bringing the truth of what I believe and why I believe it, I have to know when to move on and when to stop.
I'll end by quoting a message from Elevation Church's own Pastor Steven Furtick that I watched this morning: -
What we should be doing is finding an event (recent if possible but if not something we are indefinitely grateful for) and pointing to it as the latest in a series of setbacks or difficulties that we have overcome recently and yet we are declaring that WE ARE STILL STANDING!!! :-)'Sometimes we are too busy pointing forward and looking back, when we should be looking forward and pointing back.' taken from Pastor Steven Furtick's message "Hello From the Other Side"
What are YOU pointing to today?
Watch the skies!
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