Sometimes to Dismantle, You Have to Go Deeper Down

HA!

My last post might possibly be the best one that I have written yet!

All I am trying to do is to keep pushing, keep praying & keep watching God do phenomenal acts of breakthrough like He has been doing lately.

To get to a stage where I can readily admit that I am indeed ready to put my crush down once and for all shows me that never again will it take up space in the throne room that is my life.

I'm not saying I am going to, just that what happens next is 100% in God's hands now as I'm more intent on seeking Him than ever before as a priority...

Going Deeper Underground

It is certainly liberating to live in more and more freedom every day as I begin to exercise better control over my thought life and this is why I'm encouraging you all to find something to get up for in the morning.

I know you might hate your job...

I know you might hate your circumstances right now...

But you absolutely have to find something that will bring you out of bed in the morning!

My reason is simple; to cause my enemy to say "Oh great, he's up; I'm getting no peace today!" and not catch myself saying something along the lines of not being bothered about the arrival of another day like I was a matter of a few weeks ago.

My perspective has come to another level this week thanks to this song by Elevation Worship: -

When I rediscovered this last week, the message of the chorus really hit home to me:-

"I can't believe, the price You paid for me. What You did not owe, so that I could know You. How can it be, You chose someone like me? To declare Your praise!"

I've just now put this up on my Facebook because people need to know the work that He is doing in my life, they need to!!!

The reason for this is that it might just help them in their battle, in their struggle with life's trials and tribulations!

I've been pushed to this because I've been crushing for so long on someone I'm struggling to talk to because of how much I get the shakes around her.

You know what? I know Jesus & that is infinitely more important to me right now. I want to keep my ear to the ground & my eyes to the sky to hear what He is saying so that I can act accordingly.

The more time I spent thinking about my situation, the more my crush weighed down upon me, the more I pressed into Jesus & you know what? He took it, He took the weight of my pressing in, absorbed it all and said that there's still more to go if I want to.

Well of course I do...

I haven't come this far, been 35 years single, for nothing!

I'm not just dating anyone, I'm dating with the full intention to one day marry, so there's no games on my part.

Right now though, my focus is on God & on living out my salvation just as I'm called to: -

So then, my dear friends, just as you have always obeyed, not only in my presence, but now even more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling. Phil 2:12 (HCSB) emphasis mine

Picking up a brand new bible for £2.50 like I did last week at the charity shop has taken my spiritual walk to a whole 'nother level.

For example, Saturday just gone I was in a coffee shop in town with my notebook & Bible, something I never ever would have done in the past and then, to further that, last night on my way home from church, I found myself reading my Bible on the tram because I wanted to.

I'm not saying this like I'm trying to score any points, just that those are just two of the activities that I never ever would have done before because I was too concerned with what people would think of me reading my Bible in such public places.

That was a sign of someone whose humanity meant more to him than his spirituality, yet compare that with this last couple of days alone and it shows that something is happening; something significant.

If I am indeed going to be a church planter, then I have to be prepared to do things that will get me noticed, something that even now I'm still not used to as I was never one to draw attention to myself at school.

God is at work.

That much I know, dude, that much I know!

Final Thought

In closing then, once we have established what it is that we are getting up for in a morning, we need to also be establishing what we are going for each day. When I say "going for" I mean, what are you driving after, what is your raison d'être?

For me it is as simple as this: -

To know God more & more as this world gets a darker and darker place to live so that I can shine brighter & brighter for Him.

That, in a nutshell is my priority over any feelings I might have for someone. It doesn't mean I won't do anything about it, but that if I am to do anything, it will be only when God says so.

Peace!