Talk About a Boomstick!

Hello everyone!

This is a post I've just thrown together as I've just got off the phone to my BFF, Peter, after spending some time talking about last night's Belonging at church. Talk about a powerful evening.

Apparently, I was around five seats and two rows away from a certain person too! :-P

But what I'm focusing on now is the impact that last night had on me...

Born Out of Adversity, Ravaged by Flames

I don't want to talk about exactly what was discussed as you had to be there to experience it.

What I do want to talk about, instead, how this has impacted my life.

Yes, in due course, you'll be able to re-connect with me on social media as I connect back up with the real world and "jack in", as it were, to the Matrix of people's highlight reels of their lives.

Since December 23rd of last year, I have been away from social media and it has brought me to a place where I am now safer & more secure in my relationship with God and, like my friend was told, I just feel saturated in God's presence.

I've been playing this video an awful lot lately because we've just recently started doing this one at church and I love the line: -

I will run into the water, Jesus take me deeper, saturating me

This is how I feel now; saturated, satisfied, as though I can take on the world and truly win now!

All because I have offered up my crush to God, again, this week and said that if I want this to happen, which I so totally do, then I want it on His timing and not on my own.

It's not just that, though, because going above and beyond this is the fact that this particular girl is a sister in the faith to me before anything else. This is what hit me when Ps. Sophia started talking about her relationship with her husband. She said that she recognised that he too had a walk with God he was committed to and respected that.

It reminds me what a friend said to me when news of my crush first broke as one of my friends, Mike, told me to treat her like a sister. I didn't really get it at first, not at the level like I do now because of my own relationship with my sister.

I would defend my sister until my dying breath, I would fight for her until my dying breath, she is my blood, she is my family, she is my life and I won't have anybody speak or treat ill of her!

That's what brought yesterday's comment about busting arms & legs out; I would be quick to defend anyone I saw as family, so to consider this young lady as family means that my approach changes.

Whilst there is no escaping the fact that I was sat near her tonight and didn't know it, there is also no escaping the fact I will have to break the news to her that I like her a lot at some point.

But you know what? I'm not in a rush to because if it's meant to be then no amount of rushing will make it happen any quicker. I will tell her when God wants me to.

If He decides my future is not with her, then guess what? That's fine too.

Right now, I have what I need within me to do the work that God is calling me to. If God needed me in a relationship to get to my next season, then I'd be in one already!!!

Final Thought

This is a message to the very special young lady that I have been writing about so often; I hope you are not offended by my blatant and brazen manner to talk so openly about you on here, I just cannot help myself as I think you're adorable.

These words are indeed going to come back to bite me one day, I know that and I've prepared myself to account for it too. What I want to say is, like I posted last time, just keep your head down and make it to me because I'm taking my time in telling you that I'm in l... I like you one heckuva heap, chuck! ;-)

Peace!